Friday, December 30, 2005

#27 Shipwrecked Again

On Christmas Eve morning David once again tried to take his own life - swallowing a weeks worth of medicine and ending up in ICU because to the lithium toxicity - my thoughts are hard to express - so I'll just share this poem I wrote yesterday -
Son, son, slipping
Water dark and chilled
Penetrating my skin and soul
Hold on - Hold on

Drowning we both in a sea of doubt
Life, so hard - the ocean so wide
Tread with me me son
Catch the last remnant of the ship we call life

Far the darkness reaches
Over vast distances and
Unknown lands
Hold onto my hand -

Son - we are afloat still
Now in blazing hot sun
Sharks circling round
Clasp upon me


buggsie said...

I am praying for you, your family and David. My daughter was in a similiar place. Stay strong and keep the faith.

the_applicant said...

This must be a really difficult time for you. My thoughts are with you and your family. Please don't forget to take care of yourself.

s-girl said...

You write beautifully.
I am so sorry you are struggling.
He is lucky to have you.
Keep writing.

synergy said...

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your son's illness. I've gone through the same cycle with my partner, though she was hospitalized before she tried to kill herself.

It hurts so much to know that this is not a fight that you can take on for them. You can support, yet you cannot control the actions of someone who is mentally ill.

It also seems to be the most painful illness, because part of your loved one's soul disappears into the abyss as the illness intesifies.

As I read your story tears came to my eyes as I empathized with your pain.

Good luck,


Anonymous said...

I hope you and your family are doing ok. I am studing mental health in school, and I stumbled across this in my search to understand. I read your story, and I can't relate, but my heart goes out to and your family.

alegre said...

Thank you all for the prayers and thoughts - I need all I get at this dark time