Sunday, May 07, 2006
#31 The Long Road
Some days, even though I'm only thirty eight, I feel at least a century old - and oh! the long, long road ahead - I think one of the most daunting things about having a child with a chronic disease is that there is no end - the road stretches out past the horizon and though good spells may give one a sense of hope - they don't last. Inevetibly the bad times recur and we pick back up our burden and trudge on down that endless road. The hope I feel for David is still there - but dimmed - he has been going through a tough time lately - some weeks not wanting to take showers or change clothes and falling back into some of his more self destructive habits - On one hand I feel irritated - the whole world is before him - although he has a mental illness - he still has his brilliant mind, and a charming, witty personality - he can succeed - the only problem is that I know this - but most of the time, he doesn't - and as he sees the friends that he went to school with go to the senior prom, take senior skip day and prepare for graduation, the chasm between their existence and his must seem to grow to an uncrossable obstacle - I pick up my pack - it will take all my energy, strength, and love to get him through this trial and emerge on the other side of this coming summer - I have been makeing all the last arrangement with the university - scheduling orientation and an appointment with disability services - I have to come up with things to keep him busy, occupied, and prevent him from dwelling on the past. To be Cont.
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Just wanted to say that I found your blog at MHSanctuary. As a mentally ill person diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I just wanted to let you know that things to get better for us. It sometimes takes a while, but after really diving into my therapy and finding a doc I could trust the depression is slowly but surely getting better. Just keep up the good work with your son. Having supportive parents has meant the world to me, and has helped me so much to get over the feelings of low self worth that sometimes just being diagnosed with a mental illness can cause. Meece1971@hotmail.com
Lisa
As a former nurse, I have changed hats and I now run an energy therapy clinic. I have some adults coming through the clinic who are bi-polar who have taken a product called Ageless Xtra by Oasis Life Sciences. They are much more stable and most are off their meds. Metaberry is the product for kids. If you would like to communicate you can contact me at tiredofbeingsick@shaw.ca.
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